I have been dealing with some serious health issues recently and I am so focused on healing. I find that all signs are pointing me in the same direction even though the sources are completely different. For example, today I picked up a book that I have had for several years that is made up of short inspirational chapters. The book is called Something More and I discovered it when I was in a long term unhappy marriage. In my heart I knew that I was not where I was supposed to be. I felt as if my life was passing me by like sand through an hourglass. It was hard to leave the marriage but I knew that I had outgrown it. I know that sounds strange but I feel that I completed my mission and was ready for what was next. I was truly in search of Something More. So on this day when I have come so far from where I was to end up where I a today, a truly happy person. I have married my best friend and thought to take a look at this book that gave me little pushes towards my destiny. I open to a page titled "Our Pilgrimage Places". I was surprised to find that this chapter was about health and wellness. It was focused on the mind, body and spirit connection. A paragraph that really caught my attention was basically saying something that I had been thinking myself. "We've taken our bodies for granted, abused and dishonored them with too much hard living, with our excesses, and with too few compliments or cherishing caresses. How would you react if you had to live day in and day out with Curella de Ville harping at you? Well, guess what? That's exactly what your body has been up against. If she is tired of the abuse, don't blame her; applaud her spunk. Thank her. One essence- body, mind, or spirit- has to stand up for you if you're going to survive. Oddly enough, but also regrettably, this is what happens when we become seriously ill. Our bodies call a spiritual time out until we can make a lifesaving attitude adjustment." (Ban Breathnach, pg 85)

I was wondering if my work-aholic attitude and over the top perfectionist attitude toward things that others take no notice of, like what shade of bronze to paint the new front door have provided me with too much stress. I can really drive myself crazy over these little seemingly unimportant details but take my health for granted. I believe that my body did call a time out so that I can make the adjustments that will allow me to live my life to the fullest. This has been a tough time but amazing things are at work inside me. Wellness is my priority. What difference does the color of my front door make if I am in the hospital? Absolutely NONE. I am not there yet but I am on the way!
Something More, Excavating your Authentic Self. Sara Ban Breathnach. Warner Books. 1998.